Saturday, January 23, 2010
I never really followed any plan in my entire life till now. I only always thought planning was a good thing. Even those few times I planned, I didn't stick to my plan for long. All that has worked for me was through my impulses. I still try to plan but my mind is extremely unstable. I do one thing now, and then, something else catches my attention, I jump there. I keep jumping. One of my favourite teachers once told in a class that human civilization is just a couple of thousands years old. Whereas, the animal nature of man belonged to humans for much longer a period before civilization happened. I'm tempted to use this theory to justify my attitude. But evolution is happening all the time. It's happening now. We keep trying to find explanations, make sense of things, find some pattern that explains everything. There's no single explanation. It's full of permutations and combinations. All natural processes tend to proceed towards higher entropy, a higher disordered state. The one which can occur in the maximum no. of ways is the most stable state. Still, we try. We are a part of it. We all try to contribute to the disorder in some way. We all belong here. I try, following my impulses. Others have their own ways. We smell, we hear, we think. We follow our senses and move. If we observe keenly, it's all so random. But if we look at parts, some of them look perfect. And then, we have these ideologies. Ideologies are made with assumptions to work in specific conditions. In reality, we may or may not get all the assumptions right and the specific conditions might vary. So should we dump the ideologies? We need some direction to move. And when there are too many things, we pick and choose. Our minds cannot think randomly. They aren't made like that. The favourite teacher of mine told one more theory. We can't stand uncertainty. With uncertainty, come confusion, fear and other such emotions. Hence, we have good and bad, right and left, yes and no. And how could I forget, God and Evil. But aren't we evolving?